Why am i tearing? Why do you make my heart ache for you every single day. I'm missing you so much. You taught me a lot. This time, my ITE days, are meaningful, especially with you. I really tried, to forget you. I'm really trying...please forgive me. You were my everything, you were my all. I realise how much i love you is when i saw your scars and my heart felt hurt with you. I love doreamon, no doubts about it. But you are special to me. Our times we shared can never be replaced, nor forgotten by any other who is going to take over my heart eventually. I love you...no matter how many times i said it, i know you'll never be mine. You told me before what the reason is and i can never ever blame you cause it's my fault anyways for telling you in the 1st place. You're my dearest, no one can ever replace you in my heart. Always dreaming of you, about you. How's our first kiss gonna be like, how are we gonna be like...i'll always love you. My greatest regret is that i can never get your love, like your love for him. Like how much you love him is how much i love u too. Like a love triangle, a triangular version of meatspin. I love you dear...Zai isMissingu...so much

Went to my aunt's place yesterday. Made me feel all better. I don't know how am i gonna do without her. She's so sickly now. Hais...sent grandpa for appointment and waited for my other aunt and mum, wich as usual she is late. He met everyone already, so far, approval has been given. Really appreciate it. Did my removal today. Power ah pedih giler. Ketawa da mcm orng giler. Kecoh. Even the doctor says i'm weird...haha! Was laughing throughout the treament. He says i'm one of a kind. Thanks for the compliment doc...haha!

OMG! You seriously are shitting me! Because of you now my mood like your fucking face. I so fucking hate you lar fucker. Please go die as soon as possible. Why do you have to be my dad? Just because we are, you think i don't have my priorities? Budak umur 16 pun leh klua tengok wayang. Budak dalam pun masih ader kawan. It's no wonder i have never missed you. It's no wonder i have never find for you when i was away from you. You have never given me what i wanted, only what you want me to have. Then if like that, go make a fucking robot. DOA pat TUHAN jadi kao cepat mampos. Aku tak perlu bapak macam kao. Aku lagi rela hidup susah tapi bahagia daripada hidup senang dgn sedih dgn kao. Aku benci kao!

OMG! How seriously lame can you get? Never 'tompang' your things before? It just so shows how friendless you are. For those who don't know what's tompang, it's when, an example, you need to go to the toilet or you go to the seaside and you ask your friend to help you keep your thing. If it's wrong, please tell me why cause i really don't see why NOT. You don't have friends or trust for that matter, that's why when u die, no one will come to your funeral, even me. Stupid father, why the hell do i have you for. Good for god for giving me you. I should have just lied to you, don't even see the point of telling you the truth. Fucked up man...you fucking make me lost my day and i'm fucking sick today. Fuck you lar. Go die better...seriously. You're seriously dumbass lame.

Finally updating my blog...yeah, i know. It's been long huh...apparently, you have been missed. Wanting to have an outlet to talk to without comments and i remembered my online diary...yeah. So...i just came back from tanjung penang and it was wonderful. Watching the kids there...was very-very sweet. I miss ZAZA...a girl there. Then i suddenly realise i missed my angel too. Going to see her soon. Pray to god that nothing goes wrong.
During the trip, i realise how much my dad has been trying and been giving me so far all this years. So now i feel horrid when i'm playing hide & seek with him. I feel so bad. I hate lying, hiding stuff from him but my dad...you know. I just wish he knows and not blow his top or something. We're not trying to fool around or all that shit. We wanna show him that we're mature and serious about this. It's not like i'm gonna quit school or anything we know what's our prioritise. I just don't want us to feel awkward when we see him or any of my relatives. I just want my family to know, to openly show who are you and how we feel about each other.
This past 3 days has been fun, exciting and exhilarating with the kids and with him too. They still found out too. LoL! It's like...no bloody point hiding when they still knew. Don't worry VB, we'll still tell you soon.

My current status? Well, not single anymore. Never been happier with my family and my extended one. Still loving myself and my current life more & more.

• Just realised that if you can count how many people in your bus-stop, often enough the bus that you board isn't that packed...Lol!
• Teaching is more tiring than learning...Yup!
• If you eat then sleep, you'll stay thin. But if you eat then stay awake, you'll grow fat...Lol!
• If you can't sleep, you got insomia....Yup!

• Registered for an attachment to Vietnam...Wow!
• Still deciding on something...Hmmm!
• Finished my last pack, so should be quitting soon...Yeah!

• Starting a new regime today...Hmmm!
• The damn alarm clock didn't go off. Woke up @ 7 for the alarm clock to be showing it's 11...Boo! LOL!
• Found an ezlink card with $7+ inside complete with an ITE lanyard, blue btw...Yeah!
• Apparently, I took the same numbered bus 3 times in a day...LOL!
• Realised that I didn't zip up my pants till... And lucky for me, others didn't realise, why? Cause I was wearing black underwear...LOL!
• Saw a damn big fat cat. I mean,  I think to cat standards, lucky I'm not as fat as the cat...LOL!

The Damn Fat Cat

Decided to change my blog...why you ask? Cause i'm getting lazy, LOL! Well that's new, haha! Like real. But anyways, will still be a diary only short form, actually more like point form. Haha! Lazy to talk cock ah. I'll just talk about the happenings of the day, that's all. So this entry will be about Myself/the Diary...LOL! ENJOY reading my CRAP!